Stilettos On The Ground

Humanity is going through a major awakening. Many of us are awakening to ourselves, our God-given gifts and the world around us because the time we are living right now is when we are meant to use our gifts and live our destiny. When we are humble and have a genuine and mature desire to know about the unseen, the universe will reveal some of its secrets to us according to our level of consciousness and understanding. There are things that happen to us and the world around that we will never know why they happen. There are capabilities possessed by humans that although many do not believe are real, they are as real as the air we breathe. I know that clairvoyance, telepathy, and psychic abilities are real because I have experienced them first hand since I was a small child.

When I was a small child, I never feared death. I remember being 4 years old and looking at my great grandmother lying on her bed as if she was sleeping. She was in her 90s and had just passed in her sleep. I vividly remember looking at her and thinking to myself at such a young age, “That’s how I want to die when I am old, in my sleep.” As a child I always felt that I was so much more ahead than the little body I found myself in. Sometimes I felt so frustrated because I could never tell people exactly how I felt about things since everyone saw me as a kid.  When I was around 5 yrs old, I started to feel other kid’s feelings as if they were my own. Whenever a kid was very sad or cried I felt what they were feeling and tears would well-up in my eyes. As I got older I sort of conformed to being a kid and I stopped paying attention to my inner world and what I was feeling, hearing and “seeing”.

When I was in High School here in the United States I started to sense knowings about people passing. I would spend time with a person and I would have this knowing of the person passing. I always dismissed it as a coincidence even after hearing that the person had passed. I never thought anything of it until 1995, I was in graduate school at the time, when Tejano star Selena Quintanilla was killed by the manager of her fanclub.  A month before the incident happened, I was watching television and Selena came on, I had just started to learn about her, her music and her love for fashion, suddenly I saw a photograph right in front of my eyes of Selena lying in a coffin with a purple dress. I got up from my chair, turned off the television and ran to the bathroom to wash my face with cold water. What I saw felt so real to me that it frightened me because nothing like that had ever happened to me before. I went to my desk and looked up Selena online and I saw that she owned a clothing boutique in Texas where she was from so I called information and got the number. I dialed the number and when the person answered the phone I hung up. I thought to myself, ” I can’t do this. What if what I saw is not true? No one is going to believe me anyway. ” I decided to ignore what I had seen and just get it out of my mind.

A month later I turned on the television after getting home from class and I heard the news, Selena had been killed. I was in complete shock. I started to cry because I thought I should have said something, I should have trusted my vision. When they showed Selena in the coffin just the way I had seen her, I broke down into inconsolable tears. I cried for two weeks no matter where I was. I was tormented about this for years. I remember telling God that I did not want to see anything of the sort again, I was so angry, because I could not understand why was I shown that vision, what was the purpose of it? Why not someone close to her who could have helped her? Years later the answer came and I finally accepted that I wasn’t supposed to do anything because no human being can stop destiny. In fact all of the signs were there but people were too trusting including Selena herself. Selena’s father always worried about outsiders when in fact the one he needed to worry about had become Selena’s right hand. The information was shown to me so that I could believe in myself and the unseen. That was the beginning of my awakening to a power bigger than I am and to the gifts I had been given.

I have been through a lot since then. A lot of things have happened, but if there is one thing I am sure of today is that there is a God, and that I am here on this planet because there is something important I need to do. It is this right here, sharing my life story and experiences with anyone who is interested in pursing their dreams no matter how old they are. I once lost complete vision of my own life, I did not know where I was going or what I was meant to do in life, I felt lost, and I felt a void nothing or anyone could fill even after having accomplished so much academically and work wise  It wasn’t until I accepted the gifts I was borne with and chose to follow my path no matter what anyone said or thought of me that I regained clarity and my life’s vision and purpose became clear to me.

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. – Oliver Wendell Holmes